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Like the title implied..................... I don't know what to type... just wanted to drop afew lines to proof i am still alive and this blog still goes on.

I came back to my hometown yesterday... finally i feel i am really on holiday. I have nothing to worry about not like when i was in kl few days before. When i was in kl, is not like i had big things to deal with, is just my mind can't have a moment of peace. I tend to cram my schedule, it seems to me there are so many things i have to do. But now i m back in my hometown, at last.... P.E.A.C.E~ I don't have to worry about food, no temptation to resist, no rushing, no traffic jam... so free.....

Sea... I haven't go to see the sea... never mind, it only been 2 days, i can go tomorrow anyway. My beloved hometown, my family, i love you~ muaks~ ehehe (^@^)/

Days without cellphone

It has been 2 days since i touched ground in kl. Everything is fine, i had good food and good sleep, what is missing is my friends. I haven't get in touch with any of my friends yet, i have still don't have a sim card to make calls.

Never thought 2 days without a cellphone can make my life so boring... perharp i am a boring person too, can't do much without others being with me. I was thinking who should i call if i got a cellphone to use when i lied on my bed just now... not many names came into my mind....kinda sad about that. Seriously... I want to say thanks to those friends that came across my mind just now. Thanks for being my friends that i wanted to call, because of you guys i won't feel so lonely, at least i still have you guys here to call.

I am having a 3 months holiday now but i don't feel excited, i felt 3 months holiday is rather too long, a bothersome to me. I thought of working part time, maybe working part time will be a good option to kill time and at the mean time i can earn some pocket money. Actually, i planned quite alot of things to do during this holiday when i was still in sydney. I wanted to attend classes for japanese language, wanted to practise my software skill, wanted to go shopping with friends, wanted to eat all the nice food, wanted to go see the sea, wanted to go yum char, wanted to wacth movies....... so many things i wanted to do. As for now, i am already in Malaysia i lost the urge to do all the things i wanted to do....yesterday when i went shopping i didn't buy much, i wasn't enjoying my shopping. This is weird,i wanted to shop in msia for so long yet i wasn't enjoying yesterday. Maybe it is just a relief that i have reached here so there is no need to rush things... i m feeling kinda lazy.

This holiday i don't know how i will spend it, i won't have many friends to go out with, it either they are busy working or they are not in malaysia, so i guess i will be lonely. Wish upon a star, just hope i will still able to find my fun in my way, enjoy this holiday to the maximum, and spend the holiday effectively~ Miss you my friends...@!!!
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Going home

I am going back home tomorrow.. yet i m feeling uncertain now..... why am i feeling so........... well.... it is just there is so much uncertaintiesahead of me, how am i supposed to face them... and what should i do about them. Honestly, i am too lazy to do any changes, to put any efforts, how i wish i am a lucky bastard that everything will just becomes like what i wish.... ahaha/// what a dream...

How do i describe the feeling i have now......i can't put them in words, in short, i am confused. I don't know exactly what i wan and what i expect or what i should do...
A long vacation is what i dreamt for, and now it finally comes true...... with me here confusing myself.....

i miss so many people but another second i feel they are not that important to me at all.. how weird..... i wan to do alot of things and i really wan to achieve them.. yet i think i am able to forgive myself if i didnt ..... ahaha...... see how ironic am i.... i am just pathentic...

Anyway i m going home tomorrow, everthing will be great. and i will be fine.