Like the title implied..................... I don't know what to type... just wanted to drop afew lines to proof i am still alive and this blog still goes on.
I came back to my hometown yesterday... finally i feel i am really on holiday. I have nothing to worry about not like when i was in kl few days before. When i was in kl, is not like i had big things to deal with, is just my mind can't have a moment of peace. I tend to cram my schedule, it seems to me there are so many things i have to do. But now i m back in my hometown, at last.... P.E.A.C.E~ I don't have to worry about food, no temptation to resist, no rushing, no traffic jam... so free.....
Sea... I haven't go to see the sea... never mind, it only been 2 days, i can go tomorrow anyway. My beloved hometown, my family, i love you~ muaks~ ehehe (^@^)/
Monday, December 11, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Days without cellphone
It has been 2 days since i touched ground in kl. Everything is fine, i had good food and good sleep, what is missing is my friends. I haven't get in touch with any of my friends yet, i have still don't have a sim card to make calls.
Never thought 2 days without a cellphone can make my life so boring... perharp i am a boring person too, can't do much without others being with me. I was thinking who should i call if i got a cellphone to use when i lied on my bed just now... not many names came into my mind....kinda sad about that. Seriously... I want to say thanks to those friends that came across my mind just now. Thanks for being my friends that i wanted to call, because of you guys i won't feel so lonely, at least i still have you guys here to call.
I am having a 3 months holiday now but i don't feel excited, i felt 3 months holiday is rather too long, a bothersome to me. I thought of working part time, maybe working part time will be a good option to kill time and at the mean time i can earn some pocket money. Actually, i planned quite alot of things to do during this holiday when i was still in sydney. I wanted to attend classes for japanese language, wanted to practise my software skill, wanted to go shopping with friends, wanted to eat all the nice food, wanted to go see the sea, wanted to go yum char, wanted to wacth movies....... so many things i wanted to do. As for now, i am already in Malaysia i lost the urge to do all the things i wanted to do....yesterday when i went shopping i didn't buy much, i wasn't enjoying my shopping. This is weird,i wanted to shop in msia for so long yet i wasn't enjoying yesterday. Maybe it is just a relief that i have reached here so there is no need to rush things... i m feeling kinda lazy.
This holiday i don't know how i will spend it, i won't have many friends to go out with, it either they are busy working or they are not in malaysia, so i guess i will be lonely. Wish upon a star, just hope i will still able to find my fun in my way, enjoy this holiday to the maximum, and spend the holiday effectively~ Miss you my friends...@!!!
(^_^)/
Never thought 2 days without a cellphone can make my life so boring... perharp i am a boring person too, can't do much without others being with me. I was thinking who should i call if i got a cellphone to use when i lied on my bed just now... not many names came into my mind....kinda sad about that. Seriously... I want to say thanks to those friends that came across my mind just now. Thanks for being my friends that i wanted to call, because of you guys i won't feel so lonely, at least i still have you guys here to call.
I am having a 3 months holiday now but i don't feel excited, i felt 3 months holiday is rather too long, a bothersome to me. I thought of working part time, maybe working part time will be a good option to kill time and at the mean time i can earn some pocket money. Actually, i planned quite alot of things to do during this holiday when i was still in sydney. I wanted to attend classes for japanese language, wanted to practise my software skill, wanted to go shopping with friends, wanted to eat all the nice food, wanted to go see the sea, wanted to go yum char, wanted to wacth movies....... so many things i wanted to do. As for now, i am already in Malaysia i lost the urge to do all the things i wanted to do....yesterday when i went shopping i didn't buy much, i wasn't enjoying my shopping. This is weird,i wanted to shop in msia for so long yet i wasn't enjoying yesterday. Maybe it is just a relief that i have reached here so there is no need to rush things... i m feeling kinda lazy.
This holiday i don't know how i will spend it, i won't have many friends to go out with, it either they are busy working or they are not in malaysia, so i guess i will be lonely. Wish upon a star, just hope i will still able to find my fun in my way, enjoy this holiday to the maximum, and spend the holiday effectively~ Miss you my friends...@!!!
(^_^)/
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Going home
I am going back home tomorrow.. yet i m feeling uncertain now..... why am i feeling so........... well.... it is just there is so much uncertaintiesahead of me, how am i supposed to face them... and what should i do about them. Honestly, i am too lazy to do any changes, to put any efforts, how i wish i am a lucky bastard that everything will just becomes like what i wish.... ahaha/// what a dream...
How do i describe the feeling i have now......i can't put them in words, in short, i am confused. I don't know exactly what i wan and what i expect or what i should do...
A long vacation is what i dreamt for, and now it finally comes true...... with me here confusing myself.....
i miss so many people but another second i feel they are not that important to me at all.. how weird..... i wan to do alot of things and i really wan to achieve them.. yet i think i am able to forgive myself if i didnt ..... ahaha...... see how ironic am i.... i am just pathentic...
Anyway i m going home tomorrow, everthing will be great. and i will be fine.
How do i describe the feeling i have now......i can't put them in words, in short, i am confused. I don't know exactly what i wan and what i expect or what i should do...
A long vacation is what i dreamt for, and now it finally comes true...... with me here confusing myself.....
i miss so many people but another second i feel they are not that important to me at all.. how weird..... i wan to do alot of things and i really wan to achieve them.. yet i think i am able to forgive myself if i didnt ..... ahaha...... see how ironic am i.... i am just pathentic...
Anyway i m going home tomorrow, everthing will be great. and i will be fine.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I want to do nothing
I dedicate the opening of this post to my dear friend jessica. Sica~ Happy Birthday!!~ another year older but wiser and prettier you have become, remember I always love you and will always stay by your side . =]
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I escaped from what i was doing, end up here typing some crap............ crap crap.....crap crap.......
ARggHh... i really don't feel like doing anything. I have been zero productivitive this week and i am well awared of it. That's why i decided to go down to city for a walk this afternoon to change the mood, hoping when i got back i will be inspired to do some work.
Basically i was really walking and looking around only, i wasn't thinking anything. The things that i saw didn't process in my brain, so i can't type out anything interesting now. I shopped at market street mall, went to kinokuniya, walked back to central station then on the way i shopped somemore. Very tiring, but i was enjoying, the weather was fine, sunny and breezing. I was very mindless wandering in kinokuniya... i guess other people there probably wondered whyis this girl walked here and there so many times. At the end of the day, i bought a little cute book from kino, got my pen's refill and a few tops, not a bad day at all.
Now i am at home...3 am in the morning... i still not able to concentrate and focus to do my work...... aRGGhhh....then what's the point i went out???? aiyo.....
Really... i just want to do nothing... i didn't even watch manga, anime or drama, the whole day i just staring at monitor, surfing, click here and there and time slipped away from me..... ok, ok, fine.... go away.... go wherever you want!!
ARGhhhh ok la.... back to work.... crap......... crappy craap.......really lazy.........
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I escaped from what i was doing, end up here typing some crap............ crap crap.....crap crap.......
ARggHh... i really don't feel like doing anything. I have been zero productivitive this week and i am well awared of it. That's why i decided to go down to city for a walk this afternoon to change the mood, hoping when i got back i will be inspired to do some work.
Basically i was really walking and looking around only, i wasn't thinking anything. The things that i saw didn't process in my brain, so i can't type out anything interesting now. I shopped at market street mall, went to kinokuniya, walked back to central station then on the way i shopped somemore. Very tiring, but i was enjoying, the weather was fine, sunny and breezing. I was very mindless wandering in kinokuniya... i guess other people there probably wondered whyis this girl walked here and there so many times. At the end of the day, i bought a little cute book from kino, got my pen's refill and a few tops, not a bad day at all.
Now i am at home...3 am in the morning... i still not able to concentrate and focus to do my work...... aRGGhhh....then what's the point i went out???? aiyo.....
Really... i just want to do nothing... i didn't even watch manga, anime or drama, the whole day i just staring at monitor, surfing, click here and there and time slipped away from me..... ok, ok, fine.... go away.... go wherever you want!!
ARGhhhh ok la.... back to work.... crap......... crappy craap.......really lazy.........
Monday, November 27, 2006
Indecisive
I am definitely an indecisive person. Undeniable... for instances:
01) I couldn't decide what language i should use to write my new post... have been thinking about it since i posted last post. 02) I am now still thinking should i from now on start writing in english or chinese. 03)Though i am now writing in english.. i wonder will i keep it up..... +__+"' Seriously.. I am this indecisive.
I went to Tanrongazoo with friends on Friday. The trip wasn't anything fascinating but i discovered a big thing ----> my friend's birthday is the same date as mine!! What a coincidennce~ after we discovered that our birthday is the same day, she started to ask me some funny questions, to find out if we have some common personalities. After several Q&As, yes, we do share some personalities. It seems like we both are very indecisive, it is not that we do have opinions or we do not like to think. We claimed that we have strong opinions, even we ask people for opinions end up we only follow our own decision, YET.... we are indecisive... how can this happens?? I don't really understand as well =p
Of course I wan to improve this part of me. Being indecisive really is not a charateristic that a succesful person should have, me whom wish i will succeed one day i have to change myself.
So my friends, please remind me and guide me when you see me being indecisive again. i say thanks to you in advance =]
01) I couldn't decide what language i should use to write my new post... have been thinking about it since i posted last post. 02) I am now still thinking should i from now on start writing in english or chinese. 03)Though i am now writing in english.. i wonder will i keep it up..... +__+"' Seriously.. I am this indecisive.
I went to Tanrongazoo with friends on Friday. The trip wasn't anything fascinating but i discovered a big thing ----> my friend's birthday is the same date as mine!! What a coincidennce~ after we discovered that our birthday is the same day, she started to ask me some funny questions, to find out if we have some common personalities. After several Q&As, yes, we do share some personalities. It seems like we both are very indecisive, it is not that we do have opinions or we do not like to think. We claimed that we have strong opinions, even we ask people for opinions end up we only follow our own decision, YET.... we are indecisive... how can this happens?? I don't really understand as well =p
Of course I wan to improve this part of me. Being indecisive really is not a charateristic that a succesful person should have, me whom wish i will succeed one day i have to change myself.
So my friends, please remind me and guide me when you see me being indecisive again. i say thanks to you in advance =]
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Long Vacation
Though i am supposed to study but i was 'caught in' a very difficult situation! Oh kami-sama please forgive me.... i can't get away from all these distractions......Bad see kuan!! @_@
Anyway~~I watched Long Vacation again!! ahahaa... this is the X th times i watched it... i haven't finished all 11 episods this time though.... i am definitely going to finish all episods, it is so annoying if i don't finish watching all, it won't get off of my mind and i will keep daydreaming about what will happen in the later episods then i cannot concetrate on my study...
There is a reason why i like Long Vacation so much.. maybe more than one reasons. However one of the reasons is i always get something from the drama when i watch it, without fail, everytimes, even i have watched so many times. The conversations between sena and minami are so sweet, so cool and educative. I really love what they said.
For this time, i really love something minami said.
"when a person like someone and have been liked by someone, the person become a very straight forward person. "
why ? "Just a relief'' she said.
I strongly agree with minami. Ya, just a relief, fall in love and you will become a very straight forwardperson, i have seen this in my friends. =]
Long Vacation~So nice~ =]
Anyway~~I watched Long Vacation again!! ahahaa... this is the X th times i watched it... i haven't finished all 11 episods this time though.... i am definitely going to finish all episods, it is so annoying if i don't finish watching all, it won't get off of my mind and i will keep daydreaming about what will happen in the later episods then i cannot concetrate on my study...
There is a reason why i like Long Vacation so much.. maybe more than one reasons. However one of the reasons is i always get something from the drama when i watch it, without fail, everytimes, even i have watched so many times. The conversations between sena and minami are so sweet, so cool and educative. I really love what they said.
For this time, i really love something minami said.
"when a person like someone and have been liked by someone, the person become a very straight forward person. "
why ? "Just a relief'' she said.
I strongly agree with minami. Ya, just a relief, fall in love and you will become a very straight forwardperson, i have seen this in my friends. =]
Long Vacation~So nice~ =]
Monday, October 23, 2006
Saturday, June 17, 2006
第一春
二零零六年六月十七日，一个值得去记得的日子，我和他许下承诺的日子，我和他的新开始。。。 =]
希望我们一切都顺利，当然也希望得到外界的祝福，迟来的祝福也很欢迎。 =]
在这么有意义的日子， 就让我来记录一些我和他一起走过的日子。
我们的开始在小五，那时我还懵懂，不懂事。。。 与好友一起认识了他，一起被他吸引，然后与好友相约分享他的事。与好友的分享没有维持很久，到了小六时只剩下我和他了，也许在那个年龄也知道有些东西是不能分享的。。。 那时真的懵懂，和他的接触不是很深。。 沟通的日子也屈指可数。。说过的话也很表面。。。细心一想那几乎是可以被忽略的我和他的日子。
初中一，我们还是在一起的。。 但是我们之间并没什么起伏，没有特别的事值得在这里记录。
初中二，我认识了另一位和我一起分享他的事的好朋友。。她是特别的， 不知道是因为一起分享他的事才使我和她感情好，还是和她感情很好所以才能一起分享他的事。。也许这两件事是相对的也是同时一起进行的。初中二一直到高中一，因为她，和他一直没有中断过。当然这期间有为了他的事和她争吵，也有和他私低下谈起她的事。。。就这样初中二 到高中一，我是不寂寞的。
高中二，和他，和她，感情起了变化。也许是时间长了，也许是考试的压力， 也许是身边的朋友从来没有交集，也许是步伐不同了。。 有太多的可能性，一直到现在没有弄懂，也没有去证实过，每次想起，我还是会糊涂。
和她，不再谈起他，又剩下我和他。
和他，也许是因为少了她， 话也少了。也许是因为少了她的调剂， 和他说的话渐渐的很灰，竟是一些后来自己回头看也会哭的话。。自己也害怕了，然后决定把一切停止，做个了断。。。
到那时为止，和他也有六，七年了。。。
过后的两三年，一直有想起他。。。 可是我没有勇气，一旦重拾他，那是一个不重不轻的承诺。我还怕之前灰灰的自己。 然后又过了几年。。
到今天，我很高兴和他有个新开始。这一次， 相处的方式不一样了，我想换个模式是好的； 也不想自己太拘禁了， 我想要个健康的关系。 =]
无论如何，祝我们顺顺利利，长长九九， 大家，请多多指教了！！！
^___^
希望我们一切都顺利，当然也希望得到外界的祝福，迟来的祝福也很欢迎。 =]
在这么有意义的日子， 就让我来记录一些我和他一起走过的日子。
我们的开始在小五，那时我还懵懂，不懂事。。。 与好友一起认识了他，一起被他吸引，然后与好友相约分享他的事。与好友的分享没有维持很久，到了小六时只剩下我和他了，也许在那个年龄也知道有些东西是不能分享的。。。 那时真的懵懂，和他的接触不是很深。。 沟通的日子也屈指可数。。说过的话也很表面。。。细心一想那几乎是可以被忽略的我和他的日子。
初中一，我们还是在一起的。。 但是我们之间并没什么起伏，没有特别的事值得在这里记录。
初中二，我认识了另一位和我一起分享他的事的好朋友。。她是特别的， 不知道是因为一起分享他的事才使我和她感情好，还是和她感情很好所以才能一起分享他的事。。也许这两件事是相对的也是同时一起进行的。初中二一直到高中一，因为她，和他一直没有中断过。当然这期间有为了他的事和她争吵，也有和他私低下谈起她的事。。。就这样初中二 到高中一，我是不寂寞的。
高中二，和他，和她，感情起了变化。也许是时间长了，也许是考试的压力， 也许是身边的朋友从来没有交集，也许是步伐不同了。。 有太多的可能性，一直到现在没有弄懂，也没有去证实过，每次想起，我还是会糊涂。
和她，不再谈起他，又剩下我和他。
和他，也许是因为少了她， 话也少了。也许是因为少了她的调剂， 和他说的话渐渐的很灰，竟是一些后来自己回头看也会哭的话。。自己也害怕了，然后决定把一切停止，做个了断。。。
到那时为止，和他也有六，七年了。。。
过后的两三年，一直有想起他。。。 可是我没有勇气，一旦重拾他，那是一个不重不轻的承诺。我还怕之前灰灰的自己。 然后又过了几年。。
到今天，我很高兴和他有个新开始。这一次， 相处的方式不一样了，我想换个模式是好的； 也不想自己太拘禁了， 我想要个健康的关系。 =]
无论如何，祝我们顺顺利利，长长九九， 大家，请多多指教了！！！
^___^
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